An Empty Feeling

Boy, it’s been almost a month since I last blogged about something under the sun. A couple of work related stuffs over the days has made me kinda cheesed off. Like when management decided to retract back my increment which I really really really really really really really need. I mean that increment could have help me financially but I guess I have to wait till management does some sort of a proper renumeration review…bummer.

Yesterday night, an incident occured in the office but luckily it was caught on the office CCTV system. Got a call from my colleagues at 12.45am when I was fast asleep and the best part was, I had to rush to the office to shall I say, do some ‘video editing’. Reached back home at around 5.45am when almost every Malaysian was about to wake up and go for work. I slept only for about 4 hours and had drag myself out of bed to go to work…again…bummer…What to do, I am the only person in my department..sort of a one-man show lah.

I am very exhausted and in need of sleep. I love to sleep more than I love to eat but when it comes to making love, well I can be a maniac.

The last time I had to worked until the wee hours in the morning was about 13 years back during my software development days. I mean I could sit in front of a computer and churn out programming codes like nobody’s business. It was quite fun actually until I just got tired of it. I guess it was time for me to move on..well move up the corporate ladder. I mean I can’t be a computer programmer for the rest of my life…that would be suicidal…not that I am against it but I can’t image myself in my 40’s sitting in front of a computer 24/7 churning out codes. I ain’t that type of person.

Anyway, I hope that I don’t have to come back to office in the wee hours in the morning ever again. It’s not worth it…it sucks…it deprives me of my sleep and I never ever want to look like I got ‘panda eyes’ as it ain’t cool..it ain’t hip, it ain’t happening…it ain’t me…